Quiet Heart

And just like that, the one thing you were looking forward to all year is over.

I’m still readjusting to my normal time zone, still tripping over stuff I haven’t unpacked, and my head is still spinning.

You see, my adventure wasn’t just fun. I learned something very important.
It’s always good to do the right thing, even if no one’s watching.
Even when it’s hard. Especially when it’s hard.
That’s called integrity, and it’s worth having.

But my head is still spinning, like the days that follow after Christmas.
All I want to do is sleep. In sleep, my brain will stop racing. I can slow down enough to gather myself so I can function as a normal human being.
But I can’t just sleep my days away to escape life. There are things that must be done, but my mind is too heavy.
And I need more that a quiet, rested mind. I need a quiet, rested heart.

Here’s the prayer I had for my adventure. Here’s the prayer I have for tomorrow and the day after that.

“Father, I know that all my life
Is portioned out for me.
The changes that are sure to come
I do not fear to see.
I ask thee for a present mind
Intent on pleasing Thee.

“I would not have the restless will
That hurries to and fro,
Seeking for some great thing to do
Or some great thing to know.
I would be treated as a child
And guided where I go.

“I ask Thee for a daily strength
To none that ask denied.
A mind to blend with outward life
While keeping at Thy side,
Content to fill a little space
If Thou be glorified.

“In service that Thy will appoints,
There are no bonds for me.
My secret heart is taught the truth
That makes Thy children free.
A life of self-renouncing love
Is one of liberty.”
~Anita L. Waring – 1850